Thursday, October 24, 2013

i have nothing to say.

It’s been a really long time since I’ve written anything.  And I apologize.  But I also have a reason- albeit a lame one- I feel like I have nothing to say. 

This blog started out super hot and exciting (ok, it felt that way to Halle and I, but we tend to think we’re more awesome than we probably are).  We were getting lots of compliments, people would say how funny or insightful a certain post was, and we watched the number of page views climb.  With that came the pressure – oh man, we gotta keep this up.  People have expectations now; what if I fail them?  What if I’m not funny enough?  What if this post doesn’t get as many views as the last one?

But you know what – don’t let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game.  Ok, that was super corny, and it just makes me think of “A Cinderella Story” (man, what ever happened to Chad Michael Murray…), but it’s true.  The fear of failure is never going to accomplish anything except make you more likely to fail. 

Thanks for the transition to my next point Chad.  Also, for your good looks.

Also, sometimes I might not think that I have anything that important to say.  In fact, a lot of the time I feel that way.  I get bored with myself.  I’ve been inside my head for 20 years now; I’ve kind of heard all there is to hear from me.  But we don’t have to be anything particularly exciting or awesome to capture people’s interest.  Just being your genuine self is enough to make you important.  That’s all anyone wants – someone they can be themselves with.  Someone that admits that they aren’t exciting enough or funny enough or religious enough or smart enough, because that makes you relatable.  You aren't pretending to be something you're not.

Another side note while I’m feeling deep – that’s all God wants from us too.  Our genuine selves.  You might not feel like you have anything to say to Him – tell Him that.  You might not feel interesting enough or holy enough or enough of anything to measure up to God.  That’s ok, because you aren’t.  And the fact that you realize you aren’t puts you in the perfect position to talk to God.  Be honest with Him, be yourself with Him, be sad, mad, happy, or doubtful with Him.  We don’t have to try and come up with these great things to say to impress Him; He loves us for who we are.  Let’s try and remember that.


-S